Fuck this I'm going to see if I can manage a daily journal thing

[morgynleri]

Actually did manage to get some pics today with the inventory stuff. I didn't expect to get any. Added things for the six foot and eight foot garters, though they're not fully inventoried until I can get pictures. Then I will count things, but the most frustrating part - sorting them by fiber - is done. Whatever I do tomorrow will have the same issue, at least if the weather forecast holds. Then pictures on Sunday of everything and counting and putting back on poles.

Marisol is still in heat, my apartment desperately needs aired out but I can't because pollen, and I'm now on day 4 of this mood. Hormones are probably part of it, but also part of it is, I figured out today, anger is better than despair, and I can see that too easily from here. I don't go out much, but now even the tiny bit I would do is not happening, and I'm unlike usual, I'm not by myself. Which is a disruption to my normal existence that is a bit stressful... but also because of why it's happening makes it the kind of stressful that makes it easier to spiral.

So. Anger is better than despair. Laughter, if I can find it, is better than both.

I'm still cranky at tumblr for breaking shit and not fixing it in any appreciable way. Today's anger is not them, but because some asshat decided to be stupid panicky about this mess*, and wound mom up, and I. I am really glad I'm not on that mailing list, or they'd have gotten far worse than mom telling them she's done with that particular household and the bullshit that has gotten directed at her.

I've got things to do, and my apartment is getting more cleaning than usual because I've got excess energy to burn off, but still in carefully metered dosages.

And I've gotten words. I want more words than I've gotten, but I still have written story words and enough to meet my daily minimum. (100 words per sticker for my chart, I want to have at least one sticker every day.) I will post a snippet from yesterday's words after I post this.

*It is way too early to make decisions about Pennsic, you fucker. Fortunately for us, people in charge of that AREN'T being panicky asshats and waiting to see how things go before they make any decision other than we're still on.

Comments

[luscious_purple]

I agree that Pennsic is too far out to make decisions about yet. We can hope that by Aethelmearc War Practice weekend, the summer trajectory of events will be somewhat clearer. (The mayor posted that even if War Practice gets canceled, the Exec Comm will still meet somehow.)

And, FFS, if somebody is worried they'll get massively sick at Pennsic because of underlying health conditions, then they shouldn't go to Pennsic this year. Every year there are some people who have to miss Pennsic because of a bum ankle or work conflict or whatever. It sucks, but at least this year is not Pennsic 50.

[morgynleri]

Oh, I don't think he's so much worried about getting massively sick as he's being a panicky jackass who's sharing it with everyone so they can be a panicky crowd of jackasses with him.

Mom has taken proactive steps not to have that sort of toxic bullshit (or the people on that mailing list who are actively toxic to her mental health) show up in her inbox, though, so at least one source of winding her up is no longer a concern. (Now, if I could just have people not be stupid-panicky ELSEWHERE, all would be a fuckton better. Concern, yes. Panic, no.)

And to be honest, I'm staring down the barrel of having to cut Pennsic from my schedule because of health issues, and fuck if I'm doing that any sooner than I absolutely have to. Not cutting it this year, and not next year, but after that... I'll see how things go.